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Tuesday, 11 August 2009

so - life at the moment....

in 10 days i graduate with a BSN! seems like i've been preparing for this for years and all of a sudden it's here. very surreal. but life is so busy i don't have much time to sit and think about it. i have 2 day of classes and 8 days of clinical... grant is in town next week and rami the following : ) since our school is kinda lame, our class is throwing ourselves a graduation!

which includes a ceremony, food and a talent show! yup - i'll probably have to bust out my spandex halloween costume for a special dance : ) we'll see...

my clinical instructor called me this last week telling me an RN position opened on the unit where i've been doing my clinical. now, you gotta understand i love this unit! it's a neuro, urology, transplant unit. the patients are fascinating. the staff are amazing. i feel challenged there. i'm learning more this quarter than the entire year combined. it's been great. i feel for the first time that i can actually become a nurse. ha. i feel comfortable with the staff - i feel a part of the team. my preceptor told me that i needed to apply immediately if i wanted a shot at the job. so i stayed up til 2am getting my resume and cover letter finished. my instructor wrote me a recommendation and the rest of the staff are crossing their fingers for me. there is one other girl who has interviewed for the job - she has been a medical assistant in a virginia mason clinic for the past 10 years. so basically is me, the girl who is knows the unit and is a part of the team but not a part of VM, or the girl who has worked for VM for 10 years. a main way the lord has been transforming my heart in the last few months is how to hold all things loosely. how to trust him. how to let things come and how to let things go. so, this little job opportunity falls into that category. if i get the job, i'll be pumped. if i don't, i have an amazing scholarship for this next year of grad school that will give me free tuition and a $500/month stipend. either way, i feel blessed and will walk faithfully with the lord and bring his good news in whichever place i spend my time : )

i'll keep ya posted.

Thursday, 30 July 2009

i have a place to live!!!!! it's beautiful and i'm very excited!! i'll give you more details soon : )

Friday, 24 July 2009

so since the SA kids were in town, ray has been here, ben has been here and now my mom is here! it's been a crazy summer full of visitors i love and lots of clinical hours. there have been stressful moments. i had my breakdown day where i thought i might have an anxiety attack... but time with kara and rachel was a breath of fresh air... not to mention the massage kara gave me to help relieve some of the physical tension. that girl has healing hands let me tell you : )

this quarter is zipping along and in less than a month i'll be an RN. i don't think it's totally sunk in yet... i remember a year ago about this time, before rachel lived out here... i got a note from her in the mail encouraging me that this year would fly by and before i knew it i'd be a nurse. crazy to be on the other side of it. thanking god for the past year and everything i've learned. all the ways i've grown.

for the moment i'm living with kara and jon. they're amazing friends. i'm thankful for their love and hospitality. it'll be a fun few weeks with them... and god willing, soon i'll find a new place in the area to move into. but as for now, one day at a time.

ok it's late and i should get to bed.
night and love.

Saturday, 27 June 2009

my first day at clinicals this quarter was thursday. i will be working on the neuro/urology unit at virginia mason medical center downtown seattle. i'll be working one on one with a preceptor named deb. couldn't be a better name : ) i'll be spending between 24-32 hours/week with deb and caring for her patients. should be a good learning/growing in confidence quarter! i'm excited.... anyway s- that's not the point of this post... wanna tell you about my bus ride to the hospital on day one.

i left my house about 3 minutes late so i was going to need to book it the 8 blocks to the bus stop.... i was speed walking at 6:30am let me tell you! when i got two blocks away from the stop i saw the bus coming. this is the point where i burst into a sprint in order to catch it! mind you - i have on cute flat shoes [not running shoes], a gigantic back-pack and a bowl full of oatmeal in my hand. i made the bus but was pretty warm.... so i take off my layers so that i'm just in a tank-top and open the window to get some air. i'm curled up in the back corner of the bus and within 30 seconds this black man, with a big gray hoodie pulled up, turns around and looks straight at me. mind you - he's like 7 rows in front of me and there are people between us.... he says "you hot?" and i'm like... "yes, i am. i walked pretty fast and ran the last part to catch this bus." he says, "well done. you in the army? runnin with a back pack and all..." i politely said no and pulled out my phone in attempts to connect with friends or family on my commute. he has other plans. intent on continuing our conversation, the man walks to the back of the bus and sits next to me. he asks me my name and i tell him.

at this point he looks at me with the shock on his face.... he says "but you're white!"
i said "yes, i am white." i know ... it's quite surprising. he went on to tell me i have a black soul and that i'm not like the other white people. not quite sure what he was talking about, i was about to start chuckling but restrained myself when i saw the seriousness and intent on his face. he was pretty happy that i was like a black person even though i was white!

not really sure what he meant by all of it... but it made for an interesting 15 minutes together. you can count on seattle for that. he seemed like a nice enough guy so i was happy to start my day being present with that man and give him my attention even if the interaction was strange by my definition....

on a completely different note: tomorrow is hiking with k shay, lindsey bailey and lisa wilson! very excited : ) and tomorrow night cathleen, eric and sarah get into town.... and that starts the week of house sitting at kara and jons. a nice little retreat coming up : )

Monday, 22 June 2009

so back to seattle and xanga after a little break... just finished up my 4th quarter at UW which means i've spent an entire year here and have completed one year of school!! it is unbelievable when i think about it. time moves so slowly and fast at the same time... i feel like i've been in seattle so much longer than a year because it feels so natural. but at the same time the year has flown by! how the heck did that happen?

been learning a lot in the last few moments. and year for that matter. i feel like this year has been full of lessons that are shaping my heart. carving character and trust into my soul. there have been glorious moments and moments that make me cringe. but through each moment i have seen the lord's faithfulness. i wish i could say that i've felt his spirit at all times but that would be a lie. i rejoice in the times i've felt him so close i could feel his arms around me and look into his face : ) and during the times he felt a million miles away, i cling to his promises and word knowing that he will never leave us or forsake us. i'm realizing how easily my heart and emotions are swayed by circumstances. it's really annoying actually. i desire and pray that the lord continues to transform the deep and mysterious places in me. i'm thankful that i can trust him because he knows me better than i know myself.... i rest there.

"listen carefully to my wisdom:
take to heart what i can teach you.
you'll treasure its sweetness deep within..."
proverbs 22:17-18